hey , boy be proud couse you are my last mistake :'3

hey reader :) i miss yaa **muahh** hahar well whatsupp dude - babe act i got so many problem that make me can't update ner *'but my FB got update PP' , yo brat i use phone to update FB ok* , i will get a time to write a little bit about my busy-ness ok :) but now i want to share something with ya :3 well hey boy , be proud couse you my last mistake :') haharr , even i will be missing out our memory together but it ok actualy , couse if we still in track together i might loose my only father that i have , even i wish u were here with me , together be in love , together sharing our best moment , betraying , dishonest , tear , laugh , jokes ,  flirt , jelouse , our feature , long distance love but all that can't never replace a father to me :') but a man ! a man that i , myself not really sure if u will be my forever partner :(  lol hihi ,  for once there i really think of being a hijabi for you and i wish i could , but i would never will be :') the point is you are my last muslim boyfriend forever be ~ i could never replace u with anyone else haha truth is after 2 year i been single in sorrowness , i finally think for myself after all those year u have leave me behind for a girl that were a friend of mine , maybe you guy were really in love for so long , maybe you guy have made a feature urself or maybe YOU have forgotten me :'( well all those MAYBE would be REALITY though , and for my maybe is to move on and starting a new life with a new partner in reality :') hey , you were an awesome boyfriend , lucky for my friend to have u . maybe you really did forget our pinky promise that u made for me , well i remember how u started that  i could never forget bout it , how u been pampared me  but it all were just a memory of us , im SORRY for being so disrespect to you ~ acussing u for nothing , pushing u so hard :( well im regrat of it , and it screw up my life but fact was i apprieciate every moment that we cherish togetherness :/ i really wish that somehow there a bird gonna tell u that someone who use to be ur everything is still love you deep inside her heart even she still deny everything , or even she would say she had move on from past but act she were never :/ hey lucky boy , i took two year to move on so please forget our promises never try to look forward on me :'/ ok , being lonely is really not awesome at all but being single is way better than being hurt by the one we love so , there is someone i knew once say that 'being hurt by someone is happiness couse atleast we knew that each time we get hurt , we will become stronger' but for me to become a strongest person is not by a sudden attack i prefer slow and smooth learner hahar , im kind of sensetive but stone head person , i dont cry to show that im weak , i laugh to show that i can't stand it anymore :'( everytime when i feeling weaker i always comfort myself by going spa or sing-K and also watch movie hahar , i always pray that one day just for one day when im going to pampared myself i would go with a partner and when im upsad i hopping that he could knew where to find me :')

i never knew my smile since i lost you :')